4:14 am on a late Thursday night.
Half a can of beer.
Alone.
In the mood to enjoy the company of those I like best - solitude thus being apt.
Is it in man's fundamental nature to be lazy.
Is it possible to be indifferent.
Is it possible to look death in the eye.
Does it make sense to live for the moment.
A barrage of questions pop in and out of the basket that is my mind.
Answers hide in oblivion, not that I complain.
This isn't a night where I'm seeking answers.
It's a night I'm choosing to just be.
Just be what I am, do what I feel like, say what I wish.
I realised it had been a while I hadn't done that.
Why does that happen I wonder? Why do we drift off and become someone we aren't in the race of life? Are we merely living upto expectations - of ourselves, of others etc, or a random drift we become aware of only when the cognitive dissonance is too much to bear.
I wonder.
I drift.
I come back only to drift away again. Occasionally, I like the drift, and change my own course.
Over and over.
The clock ticks away. I am living, dying, a minute at a time.
I like that I'm living and dying on my own terms, a minute at a time.
Amen.
7 comments:
As always, do not agree. Why is the tone of ur thoughts always so ? Dark, sad, frustrated ? U have issues dood...! :P
Pich, How please tell me HOW this is dark/sad/frustrated.
I would genuinely have labeled it as happy or something.
It's a man at peace with what he is and what he does!
And it didn't quite have anything to agree or disagree with!
Dark nahin hai, sad hai. Why the confusion otherwise ? Why the questions, if not for ur self reflection ?
Man, that's some heavy stuff. You know I get these thoughts at times ->the whole gothic theme going on. Blood on my face, darkness on my mind, but a smile that tears my low apart =) not that LOW. :|
Love it how randomly you say stuff that's hidden inside. :)
@ Pich - Na re, not sad! And confusion and questions are all there, but pointedly not for reflection in this case. Padh to le dhyan se!
@Anamika - =) Thank You!
"It's a night I'm choosing to just be."
Stark.Beautiful.
@ Ani - Thanks! :)
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