IIM A, One Term Down

Well, Im one-sixth of an MBA now..
its been helluva ride these past few months...not just the studies and the workload, but otherwise, my thoughts, mental processes blah blah..
i guess a lot in me has changed since then. not too sure if one would say its all for the better or for the worse..
i bought myself a MacPro, an iPhone, n a Canon 40D, somethings iv wanted since a very long time
:)
i guess they make up a huge part of my life (do i sound nerdy; apologies, its just pure love)
then this girl, lets just call her A.
going through some weird, nice, irritating, loving stuff...and have no idea where the heck thats going..but whatever..
the one diff i noticed is that now im here, i sorta wanna study unlike back in iit, where i just hated course material.
been drinking n smoking a lot. like a LOT>
and yea, i won a photography competition here..

how does it feel to be in the hallowed portals of the place u dreamt of being....
it feels brilliant. it feels being let down. it makes u wanna cry n hug urself. it makes u think nothing is impossible.
but most of all, i think it doesnt feel.
here, the 'difference' or the 'wantedness' seems to disappear into the mist. we'r all a crowd, screwing our asses in the same courses, fucking up the same exams...we're all the same..

im happy to be here, i CAN see perhaps why it is what it is.