I didn't write this myself, but was something a friend mailed to me.
Found it to be quite accurate and true.
Sigh!!
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like.You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you're doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. You want to settle down for good because now all of a sudden that becomes top priority. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.You begin to think a companion for life is better than a hundred in the shack and for once you would not mind standing tall for that special someone which otherwise you had never thought of until now.You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that every one reading this relates to it.We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. Send this to your twenty-something friends.... maybe it will help someone feel like they aren't alone in their state of confusion...
We call it the "Quarter-life Crisis"
Monday, April 13, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Whats New
1. Working hard.
2. Leaving for London soon. Yipee. =)
3. Got an exchange programme at Bergen, Norway in September. Yipee again. =)
4. Bought a Canon 70-300 IS lens.
5. Miss my turtles. (No they not dead, just at a friends place).
6. 'Dry'.
2. Leaving for London soon. Yipee. =)
3. Got an exchange programme at Bergen, Norway in September. Yipee again. =)
4. Bought a Canon 70-300 IS lens.
5. Miss my turtles. (No they not dead, just at a friends place).
6. 'Dry'.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Myself - Uninhibited
This is from a Note I'd written on Facebook. Basically stuff about me - uninhibited - a note with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about me.
1. I drink a lot. And I am not ashamed of it.
2. I love experimenting with my appearance. I've tried some really crazy looks, and pulled them off decently.
3. I have very rough hands and I often wish they were soft.
4. I believe it is possible to love two (or more) women with near equal passion and truthfulness at the same time.
5. I have a messy room, always, and I like it that way.
6. Despite an apparently very tough exterior, I am a very sensitive person and often have emotional times.
7. I have a 'muh boli behen' in IIMA, in whose lap and shoulder I have found the strength in my weakest times. I've cried four times in IIMA, all in her arms.
8. I love my gadgets very very much and believe I make excellent choices in these matters - My iPhone, my Canon 40D, my MacBook Pro.
9. I have a highly irritating habit of getting after people to read my blog and see my photography.
10. I had this habit of exaggerating my vices. It's on the back burner now.
11. I have hurt people in my life, worse I forgave myself for those times too easily, too soon. I hate that.
12. I love money. Having it, spending it, the smell of it, the look of it.
13. I don't miss anyone. Ever.
14. I detest watching TV. I have been brought up in a home where there were four in the garage, but none set up. It's the biggest waste of time.
15. I love sports - not watching them, on TV/live etc, but being there, playing them.
16. I like to wear clothes two sizes too big for me.
17. I'm not afraid of death, it freaks my parents out. I want to see my death coming.
18. I've the bestest best friends, (two - Ankit and Saniya) one could EVER ask for.
19. I have a thing for clean feet - like toes and all.
20. I believe in the power of the mind. It's my biggest source of strength.
21. I love animals. Yet, I love eating them. I don't see anything wrong in either.
22. I HATE the Indian concept and traditions of marriage.
23. I believe I am quite the typical Aquarius.
24. I'm very proud of having achieved success and climbed pedestals at a very young age, what it takes people much longer to do.
25. I oscillate between being indifferent about what people think of me, and thinking about it for hours.
Another 25.
1. I like to live, be and look like a hippie.
2. I ADORE the Brit accent.
3. I haven't met too many people as well rounded as myself.
4. I have to smoke immediately after sex.
5. I prefer vodka to whisky.
6. I like challenges.
7. I am either passionate about nothing, or about too many things.
8. I love doing crossover roles in dramatics.
9. I have learnt that it is easier to say it and deal with the consequences than to wonder "What if?"
10. I have not learnt to say it too well.
11. I believe sleeping is a waste of time.
12. Basketball can turn me on. So can a woman with a cigarette in her lips.
13. I am an attention seeker, and correspondingly insecure in the lack of it.
14. I waste time and then I curse myself.
15. I would support a wrong argument simply for the fun of it.
16. I am both - a lazy bum and a hyperactive brat.
17. I do not respect age (to some extent). I'm not sure if it's a bad thing.
18. I believe in friendship far more than blood relations.
19. I sleep with three pillows, and love to smell them.
20. I could be a victim of MPD.
21. I want to have a disorder like MPD.
22. I hate yellow gold, love platinum.
23. I want to be the Fool on the Hill, the Man who cant be moved, and much more.
24. I don't think I am capable of hate.
25. I sometimes wear the same underwear inside out, so as to delay doing the laundry.
1. I drink a lot. And I am not ashamed of it.
2. I love experimenting with my appearance. I've tried some really crazy looks, and pulled them off decently.
3. I have very rough hands and I often wish they were soft.
4. I believe it is possible to love two (or more) women with near equal passion and truthfulness at the same time.
5. I have a messy room, always, and I like it that way.
6. Despite an apparently very tough exterior, I am a very sensitive person and often have emotional times.
7. I have a 'muh boli behen' in IIMA, in whose lap and shoulder I have found the strength in my weakest times. I've cried four times in IIMA, all in her arms.
8. I love my gadgets very very much and believe I make excellent choices in these matters - My iPhone, my Canon 40D, my MacBook Pro.
9. I have a highly irritating habit of getting after people to read my blog and see my photography.
10. I had this habit of exaggerating my vices. It's on the back burner now.
11. I have hurt people in my life, worse I forgave myself for those times too easily, too soon. I hate that.
12. I love money. Having it, spending it, the smell of it, the look of it.
13. I don't miss anyone. Ever.
14. I detest watching TV. I have been brought up in a home where there were four in the garage, but none set up. It's the biggest waste of time.
15. I love sports - not watching them, on TV/live etc, but being there, playing them.
16. I like to wear clothes two sizes too big for me.
17. I'm not afraid of death, it freaks my parents out. I want to see my death coming.
18. I've the bestest best friends, (two - Ankit and Saniya) one could EVER ask for.
19. I have a thing for clean feet - like toes and all.
20. I believe in the power of the mind. It's my biggest source of strength.
21. I love animals. Yet, I love eating them. I don't see anything wrong in either.
22. I HATE the Indian concept and traditions of marriage.
23. I believe I am quite the typical Aquarius.
24. I'm very proud of having achieved success and climbed pedestals at a very young age, what it takes people much longer to do.
25. I oscillate between being indifferent about what people think of me, and thinking about it for hours.
Another 25.
1. I like to live, be and look like a hippie.
2. I ADORE the Brit accent.
3. I haven't met too many people as well rounded as myself.
4. I have to smoke immediately after sex.
5. I prefer vodka to whisky.
6. I like challenges.
7. I am either passionate about nothing, or about too many things.
8. I love doing crossover roles in dramatics.
9. I have learnt that it is easier to say it and deal with the consequences than to wonder "What if?"
10. I have not learnt to say it too well.
11. I believe sleeping is a waste of time.
12. Basketball can turn me on. So can a woman with a cigarette in her lips.
13. I am an attention seeker, and correspondingly insecure in the lack of it.
14. I waste time and then I curse myself.
15. I would support a wrong argument simply for the fun of it.
16. I am both - a lazy bum and a hyperactive brat.
17. I do not respect age (to some extent). I'm not sure if it's a bad thing.
18. I believe in friendship far more than blood relations.
19. I sleep with three pillows, and love to smell them.
20. I could be a victim of MPD.
21. I want to have a disorder like MPD.
22. I hate yellow gold, love platinum.
23. I want to be the Fool on the Hill, the Man who cant be moved, and much more.
24. I don't think I am capable of hate.
25. I sometimes wear the same underwear inside out, so as to delay doing the laundry.
Monday, March 2, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Of a Union, So Perfect
Above, are the hands of my sister, Deepti, and her husband, Akshat, who just got married on the 19th of February 2009.
Wishing them a long and happy married life and kids just like me.
:)
Monday, February 23, 2009
Gentle Cringe
Something someone wrote for me.
Do comment, I'm sure she would read them here.
Gliding unseen,But surly felt,
Unscolding touch,Escapable grasp,Of writhing arms.
A gentle cringe,Not so subtle heave.
As perspiration echoes,From wall to wall.Falling like tears.
Morose stare,Through Jaded glass,
Sullen temperament,Ensnared,Coupled in the silent,Motion.
Upon an agreed gasp,Palpable scent of each other,
Consumes emptiness,To falter and settle.
As they do in one another.
Do comment, I'm sure she would read them here.
Gliding unseen,But surly felt,
Unscolding touch,Escapable grasp,Of writhing arms.
A gentle cringe,Not so subtle heave.
As perspiration echoes,From wall to wall.Falling like tears.
Morose stare,Through Jaded glass,
Sullen temperament,Ensnared,Coupled in the silent,Motion.
Upon an agreed gasp,Palpable scent of each other,
Consumes emptiness,To falter and settle.
As they do in one another.
Unwashed
Thou lay there, in silence,
seen, felt, but not heard,
thought worth not twopence,
fluttering away like a bird.
I choose to do nothing about thee,
reaching heights of procrastination,
choosing to overlook the work I see,
looking at your dastardly condition.
I need to wash my laundry!!!!! And stop writing poems about it!!!!
Arrrrrrggghhh!!!!
seen, felt, but not heard,
thought worth not twopence,
fluttering away like a bird.
I choose to do nothing about thee,
reaching heights of procrastination,
choosing to overlook the work I see,
looking at your dastardly condition.
I need to wash my laundry!!!!! And stop writing poems about it!!!!
Arrrrrrggghhh!!!!
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