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character.

let this be a lesson to you, Abhishek.

'<'

to make sure i follow that up with the number 3, for as long as i am able.

"<3 for you. and you only."

/

slash

how much this hurts, and why so much,
i do not understand, and i cannot explain,
i only feel and live it.
and die from it.
and yet dont. god does not believe in mercy, for now.

,

just need to tell someone that it hurts.
this blog is my someone.
thankfully no one is reading.

i love you. without hope or agenda. but i do.

2.1

i miss you.
i miss being able to look at you. to be able to see you smile. flick your hair back.

i miss your smell. i miss how seeing you makes my heart leap.

i miss our silence.
i miss our fighting.
i miss our lovemaking.

i miss our love.

i miss our friendship.


i wish i could see you again. not that it'll help with anything i miss.
but i just wish i could.

i'll miss you just the same.

2

Alone.
Bent over a shit-pot vomiting a mixture of bile and the remains of an empty stomach.

So alone.

1.1.15

- contemplating giving up meat and alcohol
- loving her.
- writing